9th May 2002- I love Simon (again)

I love Simon. He is such a genuine, good guy. Why can’t the whole world be like Simon? He is intoxicating. He’s just so nice to talk to, so pleasant. He brings a stark of joy and brightness to an otherwise bleak day. Too much. Just too much. I wish I could get help for my little habit but, I wish I could tell Mam but she would just be annoyed. She wouldn’t understand and would call me stupid and it would turn into hell on earth.